Millie Mackintosh has revealed she would often get into catfights with women she had just met before turning to sobriety.
The former Made In Chelsea star, 35, decided to go sober two and a half years ago after noticing she became an ‘angry’ and ‘nasty’ drunk – and hasn’t looked back since.
Speaking on the Mail’s Life of Bryony podcast with Bryony Gordon, which was released on Monday, Millie said she also lived in constant fear of being caught drunk on camera in the public eye.
She said: ‘I just remember a night where you would go over to a mums house, there would maybe be like eight of you there, and it would be an episode of like Desperate Housewives Of Chiswick where I’m suddenly be in a catfight with some woman I had just met.
‘And then trying to get home and can’t get the keys in the lock, waking Hugo [Taylor] up and the baby and your just like a complete mess.’
Millie also described the downward spiral effect that alcohol had on her relationship with husband Hugo Taylor.
Millie Mackintosh, 35, has revealed she would often get into catfights with women she had just met before turning to sobriety
The Made In Chelsea star decided to go sober two and a half years ago after noticing she became an ‘angry’ and ‘nasty’ drunk (pictured on the show in 2011)
Millie also described the downward spiral effect that alcohol had on her relationship with husband Hugo Taylor (pictured)
The mother-of-two, who wed Hugo in 2018, said: ‘For me I’d actually started to get quite angry and nasty.
‘But it wasn’t, like if I was on a night out that I’d just be in an immense rage with a stranger, it would be at the end of the night and directed at him.’
Millie said she would also be in constant fear of being caught drunk on camera after she shot to fame on Made On Chelsea in 2011.
She said: ‘The fear of being exposed was constant. I was terrified someone would catch me on camera at my worst.
‘I was living in constant fear that there was going to be pap pictures of me wasted, [I was] always waiting for a call from my agent to be like “Millie, what the f*** is this?”
‘You know with camera phones, it happened to me a couple of times. So then every time I was out and I was drinking in public, I was then terrified the next morning that someone had posted evidence of it somewhere.’
She added: ‘For me, it feels impossible to do all these things and go to these events and parties and do it alcohol free but it feels so scary but on the other side of that fear is the most beautiful life and don’t wait to do it.
‘It’s the ultimate self-love choice to put yourself first.’
Speaking on the Mail’s Life of Bryony podcast with Bryony Gordon, which released Monday, Millie said she also lived in constant fear of being caught drunk on camera in the public eye
She said: ‘I just remember a night where you would go over to a mums house, there would maybe be like eight of you there, and it would be an episode of like Desperate Housewives Of Chiswick where I’m suddenly be in a catfight with some woman I had just met’
The mother-of-two, who wed Hugo in 2018, added: ‘For me I’d actually started to get quite angry and nasty. But it wasn’t, like if I was on a night out that I’d just be in an immense rage with a stranger, it would be at the end of the night and directed at him’
Millie said she would also be in constant fear of being caught drunk on camera after she shot to fame on Made On Chelsea in 2011 (pictured last week)
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